Wilful Ros at all her time best.

I am really wilful. Really really wilful.

I know very well that those tht really loves me often hates me for my guts and stupid attitude toward things. Always trying and attempting to force my ideas into theirs. All of them have their different ways to tackle me back.

Daddy uses the " tender, loving care" method which is coax me slowly and in return I feel guilty and learn my lesson.

Mom uses the worst method, which is complain, ignore and scream...... which end up with both of us crying why both of us just can't communicate.

Ronnie Kor kor uses the best method, he will gently remind that such actions of mine are not right and always think of the big picture.

Today.. I realise that there is this someone else who is even more clever. He dun say anything.. he will instead choose to keep quiet cos he knows tht I will know it myself that I am wilful.

Seriously I hate this method becos in the 1st place reason why I am wilful is becos i yearn for their attention. By choosing to keep quiet, does not give me the attention I want and instead piss me off to try harder to irritate.

Ya Ya.. I know.. why in the 1st place must I be wilful since I know that its wrong. But hey.. won't life be boring if its always all abt right and wrong.. and no allowance for those you love?

Emotionals is like a signal which God implanted into us so that we know when something is not right. Becos there are many things in this world that cannot be determined by whether is right or wrong by logic and instead you are suppose to feel it to understand.

Emotional is the thing tht control whether you are happy or not. If by controlling your emotional and not expressing them at the right time, it will never be balance.

Like all wise man say.. U will only know what happiness really is when u encounter sadness.. If there is never sadness.. how would you know its happy??

Yah Yah.. I ish toking crap to myself again.

I have fall down again... maybe it might take a while longer for me to climb but I think it should be fine. It has to be fine... Cos I can't be down for too long.

I ish going krabi tomorrow... Hope nothing major will happen at work so that I can enjoy my break. Hope that he will be fine... and let things settle by itself with time..

I ish neither happy or sad.. I wonder why...